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Jan 1, 2006
G00DBYE 2005, HELL0 2006

hmmm i don't think i'll blogging here as much any longer since i finally found the perfect place to post up my poems. i only joined blogdrive to keep in contact with my cousins from the philippines. yeah, i miss them. however, i'll be blogging in once in awhile...just to let people know i'm still alive and i don't want to put a blog to waste. -sigh- 2005 is finally over. makes you anticipate what the new year will bring. well now, i've got to get going. go visit http://www.fictionpress.com/~arisnoe. later.


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Oct 29, 2005
A SMILE C0ULD HIDE A TH0USAND TEARS...

a smile could hide a thousand tears
keeping lies unknown throughout the years
hiding away one's darkest fear
but it never heals the pain

one could hide behind a radiance of one smile
hiding tears that flowed for miles and miles
it could take awhile
to deciper one meaning of it

it could mean a thousand definitions
there could be so many reason
but no one will understand your explanation
of why you hide behind that smile

one smile could mean a thousand words
one smile could be a mask upon a face
one smile could hide a single trace
of a tear rolling down a cheek...
 

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Oct 19, 2005
NEW ST0RY.

 

Promise

Author: IMUHPINAY

Summary: a promise never kept…

 

 

It was a gray and sullen morning. No one would exactly be outside at a day like this. The sun was trying to find its way from behind the clouds but it fails. So there was no sunshine on the hillside today.

 

Lea stood on that murky hillside, trying to admire the day even if there was nothing to admire. She stared past the skies her mind, lost in memories. If only she can see Harry one more time, to talk to him. To tell him how much she loved him. But that chance seems to be so far away. She won’t rest until she was forgiven.

“Oh, Harry…” she whimpered, the tears brimming her eyes. She inhaled deeply, closed her eyes, and slowly let it out. There was no point in crying. No, she wasn’t going to cry. She already wasted so many tears over the same memory. That one stormy night…

 

“Lea,” a familiar voice said from behind her. She turned and her heart skipped a beat. There he was. Harry stood right beside her. She smiles and looks up towards the sky, Thank You! She stared at him once more. God, he was handsome. Perfect. Then she noticed the tears slowly forming in his eyes.

“No…please don’t cry.” Lea began but he kept on crying anyway.

“Lea, do you remember that night?” he said, his voice trembling. He cleared his throat and went on, his eyes looking forward, never meeting hers. “That night where you promised…”

“Yes…” Lea’s voice was barely above a whisper.

“You never did keep your promise,” he said in a guttural voice, trying to prevent himself from crying. “I was so angry first. I was angry, confused, and sad all at the same time. Why did you do this to me?”

“Harry, please, you have every right to be angry but—“she was about to respond but he continued on, cutting her off.

“But then I realized how stupid I was. You were always a kindhearted person, always willing to sacrifice yourself to make others happy. You did a good thing…and here I am being mad about that promise…”

“I’m so sorry…no, you were right, I should’ve listened to you…”

“It’s just so hard for me right now…it’s so unfair…” Harry said, wiping away a tear on his cheek. How she wanted to hold him in her arms but that might not have been the best thing to do.

 

“But I’m here now to say I’m sorry. And that I understand now. I hope you can forgive me…” he sighed. Lea smiled despite the tears that were falling. For the first time, she saw him smile as well. And what a coincidence, the sun has finally decided to appear, bringing back that much needed sunlight on the hillside…for the whole world.

“I didn’t get a chance to say how much I love you, Lea. So here I go…” Harry said in a quiet voice. “I still love you, Lea, no matter what happens. I always will.” Then he placed the bouquet of flowers on top of a plaque on the ground, it read:

Lea Harmony Nichols Mercado

May 6, 1979 – August 17, 2006

Daughter. Sister. Best Friend. Wife.

 

“That’s all I needed to hear,” Lea said as she looked down at her own gravestone. Now, she can finally rest in peace. So she walked down the hillside towards the horizon, the brightness of the sun lighting her path towards her home…

 

“Harry, I’ve got to go. They need my help, the shelter is flooding and the team needs help getting the children out.” Lea said for the last time, she was getting exasperated as she was looking for the keys to her car.

“It’s storming outside!” Harry argued.

“One reason why I have to help! The-Shelter-Is-Flooding,” she emphasized, giving him a glare.

“Alright, alright, fine. Go!” he said, turning his back from her and staring at the dark stormy night outside the window. He couldn’t help but worry. Lea sighed and rested her head on his shoulder.

“I’ll be fine,” she whispered in his ear. He turned and kissed her gently on the lips.

“Promise me that you’ll come home?”

“Psh! Don’t worry!” she laughed then stopped and said exasperatingly, “I promise!” He smiled his approval and she gave him a hasty goodbye. Before he could even respond, she was already out the door going into her car.

 

It has been five hours since Lea’s departure. It couldn’t possibly take that long! The shelter wasn’t even that big. But he didn’t worry about it, knowing Lea can always take care of herself. Maybe she slept over at a friend’s house knowing it would be hard to drive back home since the weather was getting worse. Harry sighed and slept over it.

The next morning, loud knocking was heard from the door. The storm finally cleared up. Harry grumbled out of bed and shuffled his way towards the door.

“Who is it?” he said through a big yawn.

“Sir, this is the police,” a woman’s voice said from behind the door. Harry was awake by then. He slowly opened the door only to be greeted by two solemn looking officers.

“Hello, um, are you Mister Mercado?” the woman officer said.

“Yes, yes, I am…” Harry ran his fingers through his disheveled hair, “Am I in trouble?”

“No, no, sir…we just wanted to know if your wife was Lea Mercado.” the male officer said.

“Yes, she is. Is she alright?” Harry’s heart was pounding against his chest.

“Sir, I think you should come with us…”

“Alright, Let me grab my coat.” Harry went back inside, grab his wallet, keys, and put on his shoes. Still dressed in his pajamas, he was led towards the police car. They drove off and about five minutes later, he found himself on the highway. There was an area that was blocked by yellow tape and as soon as he got out, his heart sank. Officer Silveo, saw him grow pale, and gave him an encouraging push. She led him towards the scene and there he saw Lea’s car all smashed against a tree. She led him towards the ambulance and a medic appeared. There on the ambulance stretcher was a body bag, the medic unzipped it and Harry heart sank even lower and everything seemed to have stopped. There lay Lea, her pale face all covered with bloody scratches. Officer Silveo approached the distraught husband and gently put a hand on his shoulder.

“I’m so sorry, Mr. Mercado, you’re wife is gone…”

 

You’re wife is gone…you’re wife is gone…echoed in his mind…She’s gone…she’s gone…He stood there along with sixty other relatives and guests at Serene Haven Cemetery. They were a dreary looking bunch all huddled under black umbrellas surrounding Lea’s coffin. Harry couldn’t here what the priest was saying, but all he can register  in his mind was that he was burying his wife today. Slowly the coffin was lowered into the ground till it was out of sight. Harry saw the men covering the hole with dirt and once every inch was covered, his mind shut down.

She’s gone…forever.

 

The End

hahaha hope you guys liked it! i know, i know, another sad story but i couldn't help myself...my fingers wouldn't stop typing!! okay, okay....NEXT I PROMISE! i will write a HAPPY story, NEXT TIME!


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Sep 28, 2005
HAHAHA...REMEMBER THE G00D 0L' DAYS...

hahah cool huh?! man...i love those days...we had so much time on our hands! lol! THE TRIO...though we're miles apart our friendship will never fade. -sigh-, i miss you guys so much! i'll come visit as soon as possible! well gotta go! I L0VE Y0U GUYS! MWAH!

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Sep 20, 2005
THE WEDDING

The Wedding

 

 

Author: IMUHPINAY
Summary: taking the time to ponder if...

 

He watched everything from behind his bedroom window. It was only a matter of time before he would walk down that aisle. He watched as family, friends, and other invited guests started piling into his backyard and once they took their seats, he slowly walked away getting ready for his wedding.

He arrived, his mother and father bustling around trying to pair off the bridesmaids with the groomsmen, getting the rambunctious little kids to stay put, and at the same time trying their best to keep them calm. Once everyone was in order, his parents walked down the aisle to sit at their designated seats. Then with a loud boom, the wedding music began. He took his cue and walked down the pathway, feeling all eyes on him. He stopped at the gazebo, right next to the priest.

“Are you ready, son?” Father Andreas whispered to him, with a small smile plastered on his chubby face. Harry looked up at the short, balding man and gave him a wan smile. He looked back as the bridesmaids and groomsmen made their way down the isle. Father Andreas gave him an understanding pat on the shoulder and continued to watch. Then the music changed to the Bridal Chorus, the traditional song played for the wedding march.

Harry straightened up and adjusted his tuxedo. I can’t believe I’m actually going to do this. His mind was racing and his heart was pumping wildly behind his rib cage. As he watched the little girls throw flowers at the carpeted path and the five-year-old ring bearer waddling his way down the path, he felt a slight twinge of anxiety. The music swelled in his ears and finally he saw his bride coming down the aisle. She looked beautiful, even more beautiful than she did the first time they met. He could swear that he felt his heart do a somersault when he saw her. She looked so…perfect. Perfect. The only word that came up in his mind. She finally reached his side and from behind the gauzy material of her veil, he could see her glowing smile.

The ceremony has begun.

 

“Do you, Isabelle, take Harry as your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold from this day forward for better and for worse, for richer and poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish as long as you both shall live?”

“I do.” Isabelle said, tears glistening down her pretty face under the sun. There was a breeze, which lightly touched Isabelle’s black curls. Harry savored the moment of how amazingly gorgeous she looked at this moment. Then another emotion took over him and he knew what he had to do.

“Do you, Harry, take Isabelle as your lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward for better and for worse, for richer and poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish as long as you both shall live?” Father Andreas repeated and the priest was answered with silence. Everyone held their breath, anxiously waiting for Harry’s answer. He looked around, he looked at his best mates, standing behind him all smiling widely, he looked at his parents who had tears in their eyes, and he looked at the rest of the crowd, all wearing happy faces. Then he looked at her again and finally sadness took over him. He watched her for a moment and she gave him an encouraging smile behind that veil.

“I-I…I…can’t” He finally said. The crowd gasped and he heard his mother give a shriek. Then it was silent. The silence was so deafening, it pushed Harry to the edge. “I’m sorry, Isabelle, I really am but I’d rather hurt you now than hurt you after we’re married.” He held tightly on her small hands, feeling them tremble under his manly ones.

“I love you. I honestly do. We have so much in common, we do and it looks like we’re perfect for each other, but do you honestly think we can work this out? There so many things I want that you can’t give me. It’s just that I loved…no, I still love Lea, even after her death. She was everything to me. You came along one day, taking me out from the darkness, and I want to thank you for that. You made me happy but Lea made me happier. I just don’t think its right, marrying you when I have love for someone else in my heart. Isabelle, you deserve someone who can give you all the love they can give. And I know for sure, that person isn’t me.” Harry finished his statement. With that, he slowly turned around and made his way towards the garden gate. All heads following him as he walked away. Once he disappeared, all heads turned back to Isabelle. She finally pulled back her veil, her face pink and wet from crying.

“I know…Harry…I know…” her voice barely above a whisper. Everything turned blurry as people began to bustle about, shocked and bewildered at the event that took place. And all throughout the commotion, Isabelle stood by the gazebo, clutching the forgotten wedding ring and holding it close to her broken heart.


The End


 

hope you guys like it! layter!


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Sep 16, 2005
I WENT T0 BIBLE STUDY T0DAY!

i went to Bible Study today...i love Bible Study best place in the world!! just hanging around with your friends learning, loving, and living, the words from the Bible. of course praying to God! today's lesson was keeping the teachings of Jesus, not only in your brain but also in your heart, where it should be forever and ever.

i've got to say, this must be the best week ever, even though i procrastinated a lot in homework. ARGH...i hate that! but i'm going to change next week! promise! hahaha. okay, poem, poem, poem....let's see...i want to post up that really touched me the most. it's not mine though...i just thought i'd post it up coz it's a beautiful poem.

Never Give Up Hope

life doesn't always give us the joys we want
we don't always get our hopes and dreams, and we don;t always get our own way.
but don't give up hope, because you can make a difference one situation and one person at a time.

look for beauty around you--
in nature, in others, in yourself--
and beleive in the love of friends, family, and humankind.

you can find love in a smile or a helping hand,
in a thoughtful gusture or a kind word.
it is all around, if you just look for it

give love, for in giving it
you will find the power in life
along with the joy, happiness patience, and understanding.

beleive in the goodness of others
and remember that anger and depression
can be countered by love and hope.

even when you fell as thought there is a lot you can do
to change unhappiness or problems,
you can alwayd do a little-- and a little at a time eventually makes a big difference.
--BARBARA CAGE

man, don't you guys just love it? i love this poem so much. it was my way of handling my stress, just taking the time to read this poem always gets me back in focus. well, since i don't have that much poems to post up, i'll be going now. i've got so much homework to do and remember my promise of actually doing it and not get lazy [ i hope ]? yeah, well i'm going to be starting that...N0W!


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